Tattoo's

Tattoo's have been on my mind lately, mostly because people have asked about them on Cystic Life and a couple people I know have gotten some recently. I have two of them I talk about them on one of my other blogs, I have a frog on my shoulder and the words Just Breathe between angel wings on my side. It took me a very long time to choose what and where I was gonna put a tattoo, I knew from the time I was a teenager that I wanted one but I was not going to get one until I was 100% sure I was ok with it. I think the decision to get a tattoo should never be taken lightly and should be thoroughly thought out, both of mine were and I have never regretted either one for one second. I believe tattoo's show someone's personality and sometimes their beliefs and loves of things and are a great outlet for who you are. Mine both have meaning to me and show some what of who I am. My frog to some may seem like a generic tattoo but it is not to me it takes me back to the days of my childhood when I use to catch frogs in my grandma's pond play with them and throw them back, I love frogs, I still enjoy catching them with Colton. My wings and the words Just Breathe have very special meaning to me, Just Breathe is not just a saying like if your in a stressful moment to just breathe, it is something that takes a great deal of work and energy for me to do everyday just to live. The wings to me symbolize that someday I will be an angel and will Breathe Easy! I love my tattoo's and am working on the placement of my next one, the picture on the side of my blog "Let me Fly" with the bird will probably be my next one and they are somewhat addicting. For me they have to be some place I can cover, that's just my personal choice, I love to see other peoples tattoo's and I do show mine if asked, I just want to be able to cover it if I want. I've seen a few before but I would love to see what other people with CF have tattooed on them.

My pretty new layout

I wanted to make my blog pretty like some of the other ones I see. So I did, it took a little time to figure out, I'm not that savvy when it comes to this stuff. I think I like it I get bored easily though so I'll probably change it before long. Not much going on in my exciting life right now, we went and got family pictures done Thursday night that was fun can't wait to get the prints back, and Colton's individual pictures too, I have seen the proofs online and they look great! I'm excited about this weekend, we are going to Snow Snake it's a place where you can snowboard, ski and tube, us and are friends Ben and Chasta are going to go Sunday should be fun! I love the winter, I know a lot of people hate it, but I grew up snowmobiling and sledding it is just so much fun, and now I get to do those things with Colton, he has his own snowmobile. Me and my brother use to go out and sled for hours, winter holds some of my greatest memories! That's why I love Michigan I get a mix of all the different season's. Done rambling :)

Spouse's of CFer's

My husband Brad is amazing! I never thought I would meet a man that would treat me as wonderful as he does, I got lucky! Growing up I never had boyfriends until High school and I always believed it was directly related to having CF. When I got in high school and had a few boyfriends it was still there that feeling that no boy/man could love someone as sick as me. I then meet a boy who did love me for who I was and did not see my disease as me other then it was just a part of me, we dated for a long time and he was great about my CF and being there when I needed him for that, for other reasons we didn't work out. And not more then 2 weeks later I meet Brad, we meet through a mutual friend. I know the first night I talked to him, which was for 4 hours, that if he could love me for me and get past CF I would marry him. I'm always very up front about CF when I meet people, it was funny when I told him about it the first thing he said was "it it contagious" I laughed so hard when he said that. But we went on dates and started hanging out A LOT, like 24/7 we couldn't get enough of each other, I was in love and so was he. We both knew we wanted to get married and had actually talked about the next October we both love fall and wanted a fall wedding, this was in June. I found out I was pregnant in August! We were both a little in shock, but once it set in I decided I wanted to get married before we had our baby, so we did on November 8th 2003. We found a house and moved in together, we never actually lived together before we got married. And on March 28th, 2004 I gave birth to Colton Thomas Purchase (his story will be another blog). We had everything we wanted and it was great but it was hard! It was a huge transition being married and living together and learning how to be a married couple and then throw a baby on that and it was hard. We had our problems but we worked through them. When we got married we said divorce is not an option for us, we both come from parents who are still married, his for 37 years and mine for 21 years. I think it is the fact that we both said it out loud and agreed to it it makes us work harder on us as a couple. These days we are doing great we have found a balance in our life that works for us and I couldn't be happier, he is the love of my life, and my soul mate! When I started this blog it was not my intention to tell my story but to give the appreciation that is due to the spouse's of people with CF, I believe it takes a special person to love us because we are special ourselves. Brad says he doesn't think about CF, he just see's me. But I think CF is a part of me and in someways has made me the person I am. I am me and that includes CF. So much love and appreciation to spouse's of CFer's you deserve it! And to all you CFer's who think you don't deserve to be loved because you might be cheating someone out of a life long partner, you deserve to be loved and there is someone out there for you I am a strong believer in LOVE!

The inspiration behind my blog name

I wanted to write about the inspiration behind my blog name, I thought it was neat. Well I posted a picture of it as you can probably see, but this is where it came from. It's a t-shirt I got for Christmas from my brother and sister in law. I have kinda a unique style, well maybe not unique but I wear anything from t-shirts to dresses and everything in between. I like to dress up and I like to dress down, I like t-shirts with print on them, like wings and stuff. I have a tattoo of wings with the words Just Breathe in between them, I also have a frog on my shoulder which really has no meaning other then the fact that I love frogs, and not just pictures of them or figurines I really like real frogs I use to catch them when I was little in my grandma's pond and I still like to catch them with Colton. Anyways I got off topic, this t-shirt expresses me as a person, my sister in law is a good shopper for me! Let Me fly, Just Breathe, Angel in waiting these are the sayings that express me as a person and a glimpse of my personalty. I am even toying with the idea of another tattoo of this small part of the shirt.

I've started a blog

This is my first blog on this site! A friend told me I needed one, thanks Jesse! I could tell you about myself but you can read that in the about me section. I'm not sure how often I will be blogging, depends on life and when I have time or want to. A few things to start with, I can't spell, so don't be surprised if my grammar is horrible. I have Cystic Fibrosis (CF) which is a genetic disease, if you want the skinny google it, I don't mind talking about it, it's just easier to send you somewhere to get proper info. My blogs will probably be about CF, motherhood, and life in general. I've always been a writer, I've kept a journal from a very young age so I guess this is just another outlet for that. Look forward to posting soon.