My thoughts and feelings on different life experience's and being a Mom living with Cystic Fibrosis.
Friday, September 3, 2010
Dog the final chapter
Rest in peace Dog 11/14/02- 9/1/10
I had made up my mind, I was going to go get Dog Wednesday morning bring her home, have a couple days with her and make an appointment to have her put down. That all changed Wednesday morning when I got a call from the vet at MSU, Dog had gotten really bad early that morning had a few seizures and was unresponsive basically in a coma. She was suffering and I had to give the vet permission to put her down then. It was devastating to me I wanted to be with her in that moment as she had been with me for some off my hard times, but I couldn't let her suffer just so I could get there that would not be fair. I got around and Mom rode down with me to pick her body up. It was the longest ride to and from Lansing ever, I just wanted to get her home and say goodbye. When I got home Brad and I had to tell Colton. This was very hard, Colton has never known life without her, she has been in his life from day 1. He cried and so did I, although he took it better then I thought he would and in fact told me that he did not think she was going to make it, and she wasn't going to come home, kids have intuition I think that us adults lose. So we wrote her letter's he drew her a picture, gave her on of his stuffed animals that she loved and would go steal from his room when he wasn't home, he also gave her a chap-stick and a Kleenex he had blew his nose on because she loved to eat those things. She was in a big box so we took the lid and wrote messages all over that put her favorite blanket that she carried everywhere and chewed on constantly and toys in with her. Brad and I took an ink print of her paw and plan on getting tattoo's of it soon. My in laws came down and my Mom and Grandma Mable everyone loved her. Brad and his Dad put her in the hole and Grandma said a prayer, we all put some dirt in, and then Brad finished filling it in. I loved her so much! I miss her, my bedroom does not feel the same without her, there is a piece of my heart gone with her. She was a great Dog and friend, she was family.